Graduation soon! But my motivation has been low.
I'm currently in my last semester, graduating with a degree in Communications, with a concentration in Graphic Design. Now I went into this thinking "I can get a job in graphic design! It'll be easy!". To my surprise it was not easy and I'm in fear of the job market. I try to promote myself often in local servers, like Space Station 14 Servers and try them out. But I haven't found the specific motivation to keep going in that specific field, mostly due to ADHD burnout. The motivation to draw has also been so small due to college kinda just, zapping all of that away.
My only concern is that the jobs that I'll be applying to will zap away any motivation I have to finishing my comic. (but my comic is currently my final, whoops.) I'm not entirely sure if I can continue with commissions with the way I am right now as I really need to find work. Agency work is more up my ally, as I'd be able to coordinate with other people at work, but I guess I'm scared of my cringe?
I have a tendency to be small and curl up to hide my own stuff. I really lie Homestuck and I tend to be hyper or too silly with it to a unprofessional manner sometimes. I try to catch myself and my mannerisms but at this rate it's just masking and I don't like that. :/ (this is also due to my living situation just not being in my favor right now.)
Eventually I'll be able to be a little more silly, For now I'm just gonna wrestle with my brain more and try and start drawing and doing commissions again. To anyone that is reading this and has a commission with me, Don't worry! I'm still determined to finish the work at a high quality. One of them might be done soon and I'll let you know! Cheers!